I never liked going to college. It was just never the thing for me. Or I never tried to explore. Either way the fine line is that I don't like going to college. Why? Because obviously it sucked. It sucks to stay in a lecture to hear the rants of a professor whom I don't respect, the students beside me who seem to be living in an entirely different world than me. A world so different yet similar. Different because they prob don't know that things I do ( might sound cocky) but yes. Similar because I was in that position once. This might sound crazy to some of you but when you experience thoughts at the moment it feels like they are everything, they define you, but I don't even remember what I was thinking 30 min ago. So high school right now seems distinct (lmao I was trying to be philosophical with this but it Turned out to be very simple).

Fuck. I was talking about college. Yes. college. So when I first knew I wasn't going to an nit/iit/iiit. I knew at that moment that college and my 18-22 is not going to be as exciting as I thought in my younger years. So it's not a surprise that I ended up hating college ( honestly hating is a strong word. I practically tried to ignore my college at all times possible.) But the first day of college was actually exciting, it was better than I thought, new people, new ideas, also I joined tech twitter a month before so I knew a few things. Due to this, when I met people for the first time I saw hope. Because everyone was new, everyone had plans on what their career or life is going to look like. Some said they will go the competitive path some said dev. But everyone had sort of a plan. People who didn't have a plan were more fun to talk to because it was "my moment" To shine. I told them all sorts of things I learned in the previous one month. It was fun. But then things completely changed after a week or so. Nobody had plans no more, no body was thinking of doing anything, people were still discussing their jee rank, college subjects, fests which is (now that I think about it) completely normal. That is how you are supposed to think in that start. But the problem was that I didn't And they never started. I was completely in the twitter tech scene by then. made some friends online whom I still know till this date. I think the major part of why I didn't enjoy my college years was the notion I had in mind that since my college is not good, there isn't any worth knowing people and stuff. (I still think I was right btw).

Present Day

Just like this first year went by and then second and currently I am in my third year, start of sixth semester. Although my tech journey (career) is at a good stage, I feel like I missed something other people have. But I am happy with the tradeoff. Because at the end life is just the end sum of the tradeoffs you make along the way.